A letter to myself

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Dear myself, congratulations on being 20.
There are many things that have happened to you and most of them at the things you didn’t expect. You’ve come so far. You’ve become a strong, confident, fearless women who’s to be not afraid to be herself. You have no idea what you want to do. But to get you know, you are still complicated being full paradox. Things didn’t get any easier. But you’ve grown to be tougher, wiser, and more importantly day by day you try to learn about yourself, you go out there living in the bubble you’ve been in your whole life to understand the world and the people to understand about yourself.
I’m sorry for making you cry over the same thing. I’m sorry for letting you down over the stupid things. I’m I let you thinking too much until you forgot how let things go. I’m sorry for not warning you when you were about to break. I’m sorry for not catching you when you fall so hard. I’m sorry I didn’t have you back when you stand alone and feeling lonely. I’m sorry I didn’t hug you when you get could. I’m sorry for everything that I’ve done for you. Baby, I should’ve protected you.
Stay awesome be this powerful women who knows her value. And please stop giving an af about what people thinking about you.
Nobody knows you better than yourself. In the future I promise you one thing; you won’t face alone. I got your back. I will never fight you alone. Those people always love you no matter what and I always love you no matter what. Because for me, you are the baddest person I’ve ever known.
One again, I love you my favorite human. May your life field with amazing adventures, happiness and love.

From your number one fan,
Maulidia <3

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